As you will have noticed (and as I’ve said a couple of times now) I’ve been absent around here for the last month or two. I’ve never pretended to put my blog first or truly committed to a ride or die schedule but I had always been pretty regular with my posts and managed a couple a week- up until maybe March when reality started to hit that I didn’t have long left at uni and I really had to priorities my degree over everything else. I assure you even sleeping and eating got side-lined, so regular updates on here didn’t stand a chance.
Anyway, I’M BACK!
I’ve finished my final exams now and all that’s left to do is wait.
It’s funny how you get told your an adult when you turn 18 and a ‘real adult’ (whatever that means?!) when you turn 21 but up until this point I’ve had the safety net of education- even though it’s never really something I’d acknowledged. Student discount makes both essentials and luxuries cost significantly less whilst council tax exemption has made living in London a hell of a lot easier- now that’s all set to change!
Aside from the practicalities- which might not be so much of a problem in the immediate future as I have younger siblings whose student discount I can beg, borrow and steal and seen as I’ll be moving home in the near future council tax won’t be in the picture for a little while- the biggest hurdle is what I want to do next.
Studying History has left me just as clueless when it comes to the job market now as I was when I left school three years ago. Every time I tell someone I’m a history grad I get met with the same reply, oh so you want to be a teacher? The simple answer to that is no.
I have my sights set on working within the beauty/food/ wider FMCG industries but that’s hardly narrowing things down. I’m quite set on a marketing role but do I go in house or look at agencies? An internship or an entry-level job? Come to think of it, am I even up to filling such a role? There’s also a huge part of me that would LOVE to work at a magazine writing on either food or beauty or both, but that really is something that seems a lot less attainable. With so many questions floating around in my own head coupled with the countless ‘what now?’s I’ve received from friends and relatives over the last month it might not be surprising that the self-doubt has crept in.
Writing a cover letter and filling in an application form isn’t always an easy task, especially when you don’t necessarily tick every box on the advert. Whilst I know that I can make anything work, and I can and will get anything done that I need to, it isn’t really something you can put on an application nor will it be believed by HR- surely we all will do what we have to to get the job done?!
In all honesty I feel lost. I thought I wanted the summer off; my sister is most likely going to uni in Melbourne in February for the next four years and the next few months really feel like my last chance to make the most of spending time with my family. BUT, now I’ve had a month without any pressing deadlines I don’t know if I do really want so much free time. I’m not good at having nothing to do- and while this little blog of mine gives me something to put my time and effort into it’s not the same as having a schedule, a routine, or someone to impress and answer to.
I know I want to come back to London ASAP, or maybe Edinburgh, Leeds, Manchester. I’m not that bothered where I go I just know I need the buzz of a city after a childhood living in a small sea-side town where neither Deliveroo nor Uber stand a chance of reaching anytime soon.
I know the first hurdle is getting over ‘the fear’ when it comes to applying for jobs, but putting myself out there is proving difficult- I know I don’t like doing badly but I up until this point I’ve never really feared rejection, I mean the worst thing that can happen is that someone says no and I’m in the same position that I am currently in but now that there’s the pressure of being a graduate remaining in this position is not something I really want to do and I can’t help but feel the longer I put off applying the harder it’s going to be.
I’m in that place where you feel like everyone around you has everything sorted and their life together and you’re just a heap on the floor.
So, ‘What Now?’
The honest answer is that I don’t really know, I’ve vowed to start applying for positions the day I am putting this live but until I start hearing back (fingers crossed) you can expect me to be here on a much more regular basis! I’m also hoping to make more fashion content but getting in front of the camera is harder than it looks, as is finding someone willing to stand behind it and have the patience to shoot 10x (or 100x) more photos than I’ll ever use.
Have you recently graduated too? I’d love to know what your plans are as well as what you’re getting up to right now? Also please, please, please, give me all your tips and tricks for getting over the fear of rejection and applying for ‘real life’ jobs as well as any general career tips, I’d love to know how you started out and if you’re still doing anything similar today- I’m looking for all the inspo (and I am just generally nosy and feel like I need a catch up after being away for so long!)
I hope you’re all having a fab week!